I Think You Made Me Crazy

 I can't think straight anymore. My emotions are all over the place & not even words could describe what I'm feeling right now. I don't know what I want... well, in a sense. I know that I want him, but in some ways I already have him. I don't think either of us are ready to be together, but having him as a friend & a lover is enough for the meantime.

I know that I'm taking a huge risk. That kid is probably the most unpredictable person I've ever met, & although I can rely on that, sometimes it scares me. I don't think I could handle losing him again. He's been the most consistent thing in my life, & he's not just my best friend... he's family. Him, Dan, Scottie. They're more family than my parents & sisters have ever been, & I'm ever so grateful for that. I know that even after all the bullshit we put each other through, we'll always have each other's backs in the end. You don't cross family. Simple as that.

We've been through a lot together. I know that there will be a lot more experiences coming, & that when it's all over we'll have the best memories to look back on. California was incredible, & next time will be even better. I know that I can rely on my brothers & my blue eyed devil to create an unforgettable chapter in my life, & although everything is written in ink... there are no mistakes. Just lessons learned.

I know that once Shaun has Jax again, everything will be perfect. He'll have his son, & our family will be the way it should have been in the beginning. Until then, I know that Shaun won't stop fighting to make things right. None of us will. You don't cross my family, & you definitely don't cross Shaun. We might be crazy, but we're closer to the truth than most could ever hope to be. Sanity is just a sick stereotype that society tries to place us in because they couldn't even begin to understand the twisted reality they've been trapped inside. We were the lone wanderers. Now we've formed an army that will devastate the very foundation of this disgusting society, & we won't break. We're strong. We're family.