You Move on & I'll be Happier

 I knew that love never truly lasts. At least not the love that's too good to be true. All good things must come to an end, & the best thing in my life came crashing down right in front of me. Losing him was, & still is, the most excruciatingly painful experience of my entire life. I gave him my everything, & I was left with nothing but the memories, a broken heart & a twisted perspective on love.

 

 Over the past week I had the opportunity to meet some incredible people. People I never would have had the pleasure of meeting if Shaun hadn't introduced me to his brother Nate. Finding out the truth is always hard, but it's almost as if the truth set me free. Before I met Cass & Taylor, I couldn't let go. I was holding onto whatever hope I had left that me & Shaun would be together again, & it was weak & it made me miserable & I let it break me down beyond all belief until Nate came along, dusted me off & set me straight. 

Now I have Taylor, who's red hair & blue eyes set off her fiery personality & her beautiful smile lights up my day. Words cannot come close to describing a tenth of this girl's charm. She has me wrapped around her finger, & I will do anything under the sun to keep her happy. She's the girl I've been waiting for.

Now it's just a matter of taking this a day at a time. I'm playing a game of tug & war, but eventually I'm going to have to make a decision. I'm not sure I'd be any good at juggling two relationships, although Taylor & I go both ways & jealousy wouldn't really be much of an issue between us. It's just a matter of making time for each & figuring out where each relationship will take me. But in the meantime, I intend to learn as much as possible about them & take it a day at a time. You never know what will happen, but I know for a fact that something good is going to come out of this. I can feel it.