Four in the Morning

It's one of those nights... I woke up about a half an hour ago & I can't get back to sleep. I feel almost empty, like the world is filled with nothingness. Like this house is empty & the people inside it don't belong. It's the strangest feeling, but it comes with waking early for me. It's almost comforting in a twisted sort of way... but it scares me at the same time. All I want to do is curl up in bed with Shaun & feel safe & secure & warm, but instead I'm sitting on my parents living room floor at four in the morning putting a folder together filled with wedding inspiration & wondering when any of our plans are going to start coming into play.

High Heels & Donuts :)

You know you have an incredible relationship when your fiancée brings you home comfort food, just because he can. I've always loved that about Shaun. For as long as we've been together, he's always brought me home chocolate, or scones, or something delicious to satisfy my sweet tooth. I never even have to ask. He'll just come home, candy in hand with a big smile on his face. He makes my day every time.

Gloomy Skies

I love this miserable weather. It gives me the chance to somewhat bundle up & take advantage of some of the cozier items in my closet (or in this case, totes & boxes piled up in my Mum's garage). Not to mention, I have some really cute heels that I haven't really had the chance to wear yet! Here are a few of the outfits I put together last fall, although it was a lot colder than I had expected!

Scrabble

Kiss the Girl

 If you are easily offended, or have anything against lesbians, gays, or bisexuals - you may want to skip this post. Especially if you didn't know that I am bisexual.

Hello August

I've got to stay positive... even when everything is going wrong, & everything I was counting on has fallen through, I can't let it get to me. My stress affects the baby, & I can't stand the thought of that. I just wish that once in a while, something would work out in our favor. I'm tired of being taken advantage of, screwed over, disappointed, & exhausted from all our hard work that in the end just seems like a waste of precious time. Why does this have to happen to us? We're the ones working hard, trying to earn money to provide for our baby girl & instead the ones who don't really need it or even want it are getting all the work.