Never a Failure, Always a Lesson

That's what my next tattoo will say... Its something I'm trying to live by these days, & something that has helped make me a much stronger person. I've learned that I can't take back my mistakes, but I can always learn from them. I can't live in the past, & I won't beat myself up anymore. I'm confident in the decisions I'm making, because they are based on the well being of my daughter as well as myself. I can't live to please others. I will stand by what I believe is best for Ivy. She is my whole world, & I will only keep company that understands that & supports me in it. I'm proud of who I am today, & I'm proud to say that I'm doing everything in my power to be a good Mum. What anyone else thinks or believes is irrelevant.

Eat. My. Shorts.

I don't think I will ever understand why so many individuals are so invested in finding out the dirty details of others lives. Don't they have anything better to do? Are their own lives so boring that their only source of entertainment is to poke their noses into everyone elses business? I'm happy, if that's what you're wondering? I'm in a reelationship, but I'm sure you already knew that. I'm sure you probably think that it's a rebound, or that I'm just the kind of girl who jumps at the chance to get knocked up again... um... NOT.

I've spent quite some time thinking about the direction I'm taking my life in, & I'm proud of the decisions I'm making. Is that what you wanted to hear? Or are you waiting for those drunk posts about random hook ups & getting high with people I met online? Because I'm not that person. I never have been, & if that's what you're waiting to hear, I look forward to disappointing you. I'm not letting anyone determine the life that I lead.

Despite my struggle as an undocumened immigrant, I'm finally getting my SSN & my Green card this summer, I'm enrolled in adult high school & will be getting my GED, I have a job lined up & although unemployed, still manage to meet my daughters needs. I'm dating the only guy that ever fought for me & was patient enough to wait for me to realize that the last relationship I was in just wasn't meant to be, & I am lucky enough to have the support of an incredible organization who will never allow me or Ivy to go without if we are in need, I have a loving family who (in case you didn't already know), are NOT practicing polygamy or living in a polygamist community, & the only friends I have are responsible, trustworthy, & don't lie or steal from me or the people I love. I'm at a pretty good point in my life, which is more than I can say for those who have nothing better to do than read my blog & scoff at me. Now if that isn't embarrassing, I don't know what is ;)

Great Opportunities

Because of these two photos, I've been given the opportunity to start modeling. Something I never really considered, because I never really thought I had anything worth flaunting... But thanks to "Sexiest Women in Salt Lake City" I may just be getting my big break. Its not something I would attempt to make a career out of, but maybe this is a good opportunity for me. After all, everyone could use a boost of self confidence!

Leah Lately

As most of you know, my life has been all over the place these past four months. I've made some pretty tough decisions, had my heart broken, been in & out of the hospital more often than somebody undergoing chemo, fixed some broken friendships, & after moving into my second host home in two years, have finally been able to start a new chapter in my life.

Not only am I FINALLY getting my SSN in the next couple months, but I am well signed up for Entrada, (an Adult High School), to get my GED, I have a modeling opportunity this weekend & quite possibly on a regular basis, I'll be getting my drivers license & then after all this time... I'll finally have a place of my own! Life couldn't be sweeter right now, & I'm so lucky to have somebody loving me & supporting me through all of this. I couldn't ask for a more dedicated boyfriend.

Life is what we make it, so we're making it worth living <3

With Your Love

It's funny how sometimes having your world turned upside down can be for the best, especially when something you never expected to feel hits you full force & all of a sudden, you're a fool in love all over again.

I wasn't really planning on being with anyone for quite some time, if ever... I wanted to get my life in order first. I wanted to ensure that I was the only person that had any say in the kind of life that me & my daughter were going to live, & although I still feel that way, its refreshing to be with somebody who supports my decisions as a Mother first, an individual second, & a girlfriend last. Nobody understands me like he does, & nobody has ever cared as much for me AND my daughter as he does. I've finally moved on, & it feels so good!

Monroe Addict

I love my sisters style! I feel like a toddler trying to dress myself for the first time next to her. I ought to hire her as my own personal stylist...